bile kyte menyayangi seseorg tu,adekah kyte betul2 menyayangi dye? wondering if i really not siutable for him! why? mybe i will keep it the answer. sdeyh ble ak jd mara kat dye sgt2. ak x ske mara dye,ak sendiri pon x ske mara2. sape je dalam dunie ni ske mara2 kan?? ak bukan nk tengking2 dye. mcm td ak try jd cool evenak taw ak da mara sgt2. than x semene2 dye uat blek ak mara. seriously im really angry! ak x ske ade org caba kesabaran ak.even bg dye juz nk ckap, tp law da berulang kli ckap mende sme?? sowie laa. ak mmg x ckop saba.
satu je kelemahan ak ble ak betul2 da mara n tu yg uat ak btol2 sket. CRYING! tu sume kelemahan ppuan. i noe that. but crying time mara n dikecewekan sgt2 laen. dade ak ckop saket ble mara,tu yg menyebabkan ak menanges. ak try kawal mara ak ble dye start MEMANTUN ak. tp ble da capai thap yg ak x ske, sowie la law ak menengking. sape yg rapat nan ak msti taw ak ni hot temperate sgt2. tp sape yg kenal ak gk mesti taw yg ak nie pering n best buat kawn kdg2 ;) hurm.. tah la~ semakin ari semakin ssah tok ak handle hubungan ni. ak buntu x taw nk cte nan sape2 masalah ak. kawn2 ak sume jauh2 n ak sorang kat uma xde sape yang taw maslh ak. nak cte nan mak, ak bukan jenisyg ske cte masalh nan family. kawan je peneman ak. tp ble kawan baek ak pon jauh cmne ak nk luahkan masalh2 ak kat dyerg.
ade org kate ak ni pemendam. ske pendam jewp sume maslah uh. ye! kdg2 ak ni mmg cm tu. xdinafikan ak mmg ske pendam sume mende. bia la ak saket sorg2. law org taw pon ak juz bebankan org tu je. tp betul gk mmbe ak ckap, x sme mende kyte kene pendam. sometimes kyte kene lepaskan cz nnty boleh jd tekanan perasaan. ya ALLAH , ak betul2 sygkan dye.tp setiap kli ak bergado nan dye ak jd x keruan. care dye ble bergado uat ak saket ati sgt2.
hurm. ak try my best tok jd gurl yg terbaek untuk dye. even kdg2 ak rse useless, tp ak taww kat dlam dri ak mesti ade smthin yg dye ske. tah laa. hati ak menolak dye. semakin hari semakin menolak. ak syg dye tp kenape hati ak menolak dye. satu2 maslah dtg kat ak. kdg ak pikir ak da xnk bercinte lagi. saket sgt2 bercinte ni. tp ak need someone yg bole support ak, tgk2kan ak.. since ak ade dye ak happy sgt. ak bosan dye bwk ak kua, ak lapa dye bawk ak makn,ak tension dye try happykan ak. dye ckop jage ak. tp ble setiap kli mende yg leyh uat gado jd,ak terus x kenal. t ble ak senyap dye kol,o msg. kadg ak langsg x blas. ble dye kol?? ak akan senyap je. tp sumpah jauh dri sudut ati ak ak nk berckp nan dye. tp x deh kate2 yg terluah!
8 bulan~lme sgt tol ak. ak sygkan dye smpai ak sendri x taw nk explain cmne g. adekah ak ptot berseorangan lg? hurm.
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